conversation on one comic.

ayumu : i am not going to kill my self. i don't want to die. but i don't want to life either. i'm scared. scared to life. scared to die. "let me go"
miki : *came to safe her
ayumu : "it's strange that i do this to myself. isn't it?"
miki : *smiled "there was no other way, right? to do that yourself. you've gotta really hurting inside"
ayumu : *cried
miki : "all right. let's have some fun! just..empty your mind!"
(then, they're going to have fun, karaoke, shopping, etc)
when they were on karaoke box :
ayumu : "i'm never experienced a happier moment than today."
miki : "but today will end. you need to learn better ways to deal with shit like talking about your problems. i hoped you would vent your feelings! let it out"
ayumu : "i'm never do anything wrong! and i've been hurt! why noone ever believed me? i hate them all. why they were very cruel to me?"
miki : *smiled "you're strong."
ayumu : "i was thinking that if this is how life is going to be, i'd rather be dead. i was scared. there aren't any guarantees for the future, are there? i'm going go start taking more risks. i had fun today, because i let myself have fun. but i can only enjoy the present i believe that the future will be different. i want to believe that there will be more fun days. days when i forget the pain. days when i'll feel stronger than i do now. because i want to be able to live. without relying on something like this."
miki : "i hope you can stop doing that to yourself someday."


just read that conversation on one comic from internet. and i.....................cried. :'(
woaah, can't wait to read the other chapters. -,-