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"i was thinking that if this is how life is going to be, i'd rather be dead. i was scared. there aren't any guarantees for the future, are there? i'm going go start taking more risks. i had fun today, because i let myself have fun. but i can only enjoy the present i believe that the future will be different. i want to believe that there will be more fun days. days when i forget the pain. days when i'll feel stronger than i do now. because i want to be able to live. without relying on something like this."