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"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" *screaming

idk why i wanna scream and lose control. forget about my problems, forget about fuck-school-subjects, errrrrrrr forget about everything that made me crazy like this. 

okay, i knew and now i really know i don't have to think about this just by myself. but hey ! don't you know that everyone have their own business? they are busy all day. i knew, at this year i was on 3rd year in high school so my-best-friends and i have to prepare for the final exam and snmptn. when i really need some help or someone to make my mood better, they was very busy so........... i shouldn't be selfish. however, i only can thinking about my own problems by my own thought.  i know they care, but.................when i said what's going on with me and then hemmm they said "be more patient!" oh my......, i have been be patient all day, since i was born. if i don't be patient maybe i couldn't wrote this post yeah because i've committed suicide. hahahaha. okay kidding. -___- .

hemm yesterday, i felt when i shared my problems it's couldn't make anything different, yeah it couldn't helped me at all. but on the other side, suddenly i still needed their concern to lighten my burden............