...

I know that........
I am not strong enough.
I can not face it all.
I tired of all my problems.
I don't understand about everything that happened.
I need someone to share all of that.
I have a lot of friend.
they are care to me but somehow i think they aren't.
sometimes they are just being hypocrite.
and the most I know is.....
I was very stupid to solve my own problems without getting someone's help.

finally, i don't know.........
how to believe in someone anymore, and what should i do.

there are clashes between my heart, mind, and the logic.